I really do know how you are feeling. I was almost in that position 5 years ago. I had to have a PET scan to confirm it hadn’t spread. If it had, they wouldn’t do the op to remove the tumor, my bladder and my surrounding organs. I still remember the feeling as I waited for the results. I am wishing you the best and hoping 5 years from now you too are talking about it all in the past. Keeping everything crossed for you. Le us know how you get on. Laura, Moderator, BladderCancer.net